MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, October 29, 2009
Not much things to say anyways.
Pictures uploaded! Go to my page @ Facebook :D
Sayonara guys :P
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/29/2009 07:32:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Monday, October 26, 2009
Pretty tired at school, I wonder why...
Anyways...
I am not feeling emo anymore.
In fact, I feel more regretful and desperate.
For those who know, well, you know...
But I don't wanna talk about this stupid thing any more.
Today had a hell of a time at library playing Boxhead with Victor.
Haha I pwned your ass LOL XD
Too bad you forgot to turn off the friendly fire at first, then I keep killing and shooting you down :P
Literature in the library, so it's pretty damn shiok.
To LM: Well, I won't be thinking too much liao.
To Mel: Thanks for helping me!!!
To E: Yeah, you don't have to be so worked up, you know. It's probably just a little mood swing.
To Fiona: Tyty!!! Yeah, I gotta be optimistic again, must not always think about failing. Let's work very hard and ace in 'O' Levels next year!
(LOL planning in advance)
Gotta go already. Must help my bro with his things and all that.
... Ok, it's an excuse.
Hmm... 30 more days to my birthday!
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/26/2009 05:06:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, October 23, 2009
Shitty man... I mean, seriously.
It's kinda boring to just sit here, do things here and there, completing online homework and you realised....
You're all alone.
Yeah, my whole family has gone out.
'Cept for me.
So I have nothing better to do.
Mapling? Done.
Singing? Been there, done that.
Watching sadistic/funny videos? Yawn.
Doing my very best not to slack? Am trying. Not sure it worked.
Sigh...
Anyways, thanks for the tips, guys.
I can count on LM as my aunt agony number 1!
Then E and Regina can be comforters!
Melissa will be 'tong qing wo de ren' (a person who pities me)
Well, seriously, those little words cheered me up.
But that doesn't mean that the problem is solved.
Now that you guys know what I am feeling, I guess I have to do something.
But I don't have the courage to break friendship with LeAnne!
I am those kind of people who would rather keep quiet than face the music.
I am just not that cool in doing things which opposes my personality.
And I am not just going to sit in the emo corner, wallowing in self-pity.
Nor I am gonna backstab anyone who is in my way.
I am... I not sure what or how am I gonna handle so many things in my mind right now...
Part of me wanted to hurt LeAnne so much, another part of me was afraid.
Yeah, well, I don't sound like myself nowadays, but it can't be helped, right?
Under results stress, I can go from nuts to going loco to IMH.
I feel like being torn apart.
Sorry guys, it's not the old Nina anymore...
I am pretty stressed right now, and this is the only outlet that I can scream into.
NO I AM NOT EMO-ING.
Just... A little bit of whining.
Nah, not crying.
Just a little suffocated.
Nope, no scars on my wrist.
I am still open-minded.
I can hear some cool piano songs from my neighbours.
That kinda makes me happier :)
So...
I guess I can pretty much sum my life up.
It sucked, but my friends are those little balls of light which guides me through the darkest of hours.
Hmm... Maybe fairies are nicer.
Or glowing chocolates.
Or light sticks.
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/23/2009 08:35:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Thursday, October 22, 2009
Well, exams are pretty much over, so everyone's quite happy :)
Everybody except me, of course.
After exams, even though I can slack like nobody's business, I worry for my results...
Well, I had to, right? I mean, Ms Wong's death glare is not to be messed with, especially if you are one of the noober students for English. Failing EOY could mean serious trouble.
Like this case.
Ms Wong: (to the whole class, but delibrately aimed at SOMEONE for some reason which... Well, you get the picture.) ...And if anyone of YOU fail, you don't need to go to Beijing to go see peopple change face. I will change your face for YOU. (looks at me evilly)
Me: (of course, I would have cried, but it's too embarrasing at that moment) *looks away* *laughs nervously*
...
Ha! See who gets that last laugh.
And obviously it's me.
After I got my stupid suckish result (3 fails currently, don't ask. I'm still emo-ing about it), I've uber-pwned English. Seriously, for my entire student life, I didn't expect myself to score so high on summary (22/25. Makes even myself jealous :P) when I am always the GG kind of case.
Talking about GG...
I had said GG for the rest of Tuesday.
Probably for a few hours I've said that.I was so damn stressed, ok?
What's more, I was thinking whether to drop to Combined.
'Coz I sucked at Chem, Bio and Physics.
And I don't like Mrs Low.
Seriously, have you ever heard a teacher who ENCOURAGES you to drop to NA when she is supposed to CHEER YOU UP?!
She is truly a...*sigh*
Anyways, I have some serious issues in my friendships.
Seriously.
Wait, why do I always say serious this serious that?
-.-
Well, I know she won't bother to come to this blog 'coz I know she won't.
She just won't.
I hope E don't betray me.
Erm... Yeah, major relationship problem with LeAnne.
I had known her for like, only 9 months or so.
And I tell ya, you wouldn't like her attitude.
I mean, would you want to get hit by a monster truck carrying tons of explosives which might go off anytime?
Yeah, she is like that, except I would prefer the monster truck death.
At least it's instant. The worst case scenario is to be stuck in a rotten hospital moaning about my own foolishness.
But whatever.
She is hell, man...
She could hit you hard without bothering a sorry.
She could accidently touch you, without apologising.
I had told Mel and LM about the reason for my emoness, and they agreed that I should stay a low profile for some time.
But...
Running ain't always the solution, right?
One part of me wanted to end the friendship with her, another part of me didn't want to hurt her too much, even though she is vicious.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
What to do???
What the f*^# am I supposed to do?
Seriously...
I hate this.
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/22/2009 04:54:00 PM <3
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MIDNIGHT!/ Sunday, October 4, 2009
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/04/2009 03:52:00 PM <3
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News flash today!
Nina updated again, half-completed her homework (her best record so far), desperately trying to save her English from failing and at the same time, slacking.
Ok, that was random. I am bored. I don't like revision and all, especially when I had gaming in mind. But I must study, for goodness sake. If I don't pass this freakin' exam, i'll drop to NA. NA, you know.
NA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Seriously.
Normal Academic.
I mean, to me, it's not all that bad. At least you can go back home early, unlike 3/9.
And, unlike 3/9, you can't get into good courses.
If I drop, my parent's, my teacher's and my hopes will soon follow.
I feel like tearing myself apart :(
Saw an accident yesterday on the way back home after Mid-Summer Fest. It was really horrible. A taxi went all the way off course and crashed behind a bus stop. A silver car in front of it was badly crushed, especially on the driver's side. Wonder anyone died.
Anyways, enough about my rants. Sounds so boring.
TO ALL NERDZ OF 3/9 AND MAH FRIENDS, GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD LUCK TO EOY!
:P
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/04/2009 01:17:00 PM <3
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