MIDNIGHT!/ Friday, October 23, 2009
Shitty man... I mean, seriously.
It's kinda boring to just sit here, do things here and there, completing online homework and you realised....
You're all alone.
Yeah, my whole family has gone out.
'Cept for me.
So I have nothing better to do.
Mapling? Done.
Singing? Been there, done that.
Watching sadistic/funny videos? Yawn.
Doing my very best not to slack? Am trying. Not sure it worked.
Sigh...
Anyways, thanks for the tips, guys.
I can count on LM as my aunt agony number 1!
Then E and Regina can be comforters!
Melissa will be 'tong qing wo de ren' (a person who pities me)
Well, seriously, those little words cheered me up.
But that doesn't mean that the problem is solved.
Now that you guys know what I am feeling, I guess I have to do something.
But I don't have the courage to break friendship with LeAnne!
I am those kind of people who would rather keep quiet than face the music.
I am just not that cool in doing things which opposes my personality.
And I am not just going to sit in the emo corner, wallowing in self-pity.
Nor I am gonna backstab anyone who is in my way.
I am... I not sure what or how am I gonna handle so many things in my mind right now...
Part of me wanted to hurt LeAnne so much, another part of me was afraid.
Yeah, well, I don't sound like myself nowadays, but it can't be helped, right?
Under results stress, I can go from nuts to going loco to IMH.
I feel like being torn apart.
Sorry guys, it's not the old Nina anymore...
I am pretty stressed right now, and this is the only outlet that I can scream into.
NO I AM NOT EMO-ING.
Just... A little bit of whining.
Nah, not crying.
Just a little suffocated.
Nope, no scars on my wrist.
I am still open-minded.
I can hear some cool piano songs from my neighbours.
That kinda makes me happier :)
So...
I guess I can pretty much sum my life up.
It sucked, but my friends are those little balls of light which guides me through the darkest of hours.
Hmm... Maybe fairies are nicer.
Or glowing chocolates.
Or light sticks.
Dammit, it ain't meant to be.
10/23/2009 08:35:00 PM <3
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